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- I am profoundly sad.
- I don’t know that much about political history, but when was the last time an election left masses crying for days or weeks straight. First at the outcome. Then at the fear for the future digression. Then at feeling of soft spot in heart when a stranger smiles knowingly. A grieving process is talked about. But this is not. Void of acceptance at the sight of all of us. A grieving is for a forever loss. This is a pain from an abuse.
- I am not ashamed to be white, and I am tired and sad of hearing people say they are. This is Regarding Race, all this being [The United States Presidency, as it devolves]. This is also regarding gender. Sexuality. Religion. If you must be ashamed, be ashamed of everyone else who voted Trump, but be not ashamed of your skin color. Or gender. It’s as though Being Alive has become some sort of thing requiring a background in High Math. There are still allowed to be white, straight, cis-gendered men and women. We’re still allowed to like them. Everyone on our side is necessary.
See, I’ve had problems understanding things in the event of disaster. A great example is the tragedy down in Orlando. After the fallout of the shooting, and after the fallout of so many hate crimes this year, the affected group is riled up against “others” sharing their pain or joining in the grieving process. In that case, specifically, many gays were offended to see straight/not targeted citizens of Orlando mark themselves as safe on Facebook. Later on, I read a post by someone livid that a straight person was trying to apply for funding to create an artistic memorial for the victims. Well, I for one was glad that my family in Florida was safe. And what’s the real issue with someone outside the targeted group commemorating the victims? What we are afraid of is someone outside of a targeted group to commandeer the oppression as their own. We are concerned that people will disrespect and misrepresent our hurt. But pushing away those who support us most and who are doing their best to fight by our side–our friends and allies–is counterproductive. Divides us further.
And now. People are scared that black, Asian, Mexican, Middle eastern, etc. etc., people will be disgusted with our whiteness? My brother started an email the other day with something like, “I know I’m a heterosexual white male, so I don’t have much of a say.” Well fuck that, quite frankly. That brother of mine is smart, compassionate, thoughtful, and someone who should be able to be my and our ally without being ashamed. I know who I voted for, and I know who I stand by and with. My girlfriend is Middle Eastern No matter how westernized anyone is, all the hate and bigoted comments about people with brown skin–many kinds of brown skin–is terrifying to me. She doesn’t say, “oh well you have nothing to worry about, because you’re white.”
- How am I/are we supposed to afford the amount of alcohol we deserve to get through this whole month if not the next four years.
- I wanted to get married my whole life. Not in the way that I imagined a fantasy wedding with a fancy white dress and horse–well of course; I never really imagined myself in a big, white wedding gown–but just because I wanted the ability to have what my parents have. The greatest love turned into an exciting partnership with many milestones. I never thought much of it.
I didn’t pay attention to marriage equality throughout my teens, because I was busy being a normal, confused, horny teenager focused on competitively achieving impossible female beauty standard of being under 100 pounds on any given day.
| Sidebar: can we not have a president who pushes the most ridiculous idea of the female ideal on the public? I thought we were getting somewhere. Finally, we were getting to a place in society where I thought, hm…maybe I can actually have kids I will encourage to just be healthy and they’ll be like, ‘good idea!’ From more or less six years of experience with eating disorders, I can say that it’s not that fun to go to bed so hungry and in pain, not cushioned at all with my knee and leg bones touching each other, thinking, ‘I’m afraid I might not wake up tomorrow.’ But at least I was skinny. And I’m kind of chubby now, but I’m also kind of like, ‘fuck you, Trump. I hope you were right when you said Alicia Machado likes to eat, because I definitely do too, and I’m having fun doing it, assclown!’ |
I dated boys and never thought that much about it until I met my long term college boyfriend. He was so great and is to this day, but ultimately, we went our separate ways, at which point, like many do, I found myself smack in the midst of exiting my “possibly a bisexual person in conversation on my most blackout drunk nights” into full fledged homosexuality in one night’s time.
I say homosexual, because that’s what I am, day by day, every day, especially in my current committed relationship with my girlfriend, Bettina. But there’s always my broader view about the whole thing of sexuality in this article I once wrote. And basically, what I’m getting at, is why the shit can I not get married? And gay people could, by the time I was out of one closet and deep into another one full of Birkenstocks. But only in some places. I remember when Marriage Equality was passed. I was so pleasantly surprised but also felt like, ‘right on, America–keep on pushing!’ Like this was a logical step in our progress. Because it was. And now, based on the politicians Grabbing The White House by The Pussy, we’re potentially about to go back to an old world style of not letting us homos get married. And I’m sitting here like I THOUGHT THINGS WERE LOOKING GOOD FOR MY RELATIONSHIP! And also…
- Not letting ladies govern their own bodies. Ha! First of all, let’s just all take a moment to bask, at a distance or as close as we feel comfortable with, in the inferno that Trump’s fucked up rhetoric about women left burning forever. Like, if I’m even allowed to have children in the future, I don’t know if I want them to read what he said in their history text books. But then again, at the rate we’re going, maybe we will be lucky if objective texts are still allowed to be taught. So now that we’re all aware of pussy grabbing, defamation of women based on their weights and ethnicities; sometimes even pregnancy, we know where the basis for this sort of government control on reproductive health comes from.
We need to be able to obtain affordable birth control. Who knows what the final call on this healthcare provision will be, since Trump is now apparently up in the air about it. I mean, when you are a dude known for getting with women all over town, it would probably be convenient to have birth control OR abortions be accessible instead of neither. There are so many reasons for women to seek birth control, so what if it becomes harder to access affordably? Period pain and symptoms, excess hair, unbalanced hormones, bad skin…who cares? Right! Whatever, man! Women, right? LOL. And let’s not forget the icing on the cake–reconsidering Roe vs Wade! And sidebar, is anyone familiar with the theory that unwanted pregnancies can lead to neglected kids who can become criminals? It comes from the idea that crime dropped significantly a couple decades after Roe vs Wade was passed. If Trump wants to reduce crime, I’m just sayin’ there’s kind of a theoretical shortcut here– don’t force women to bare children they aren’t ready or equipped to take care of.
- Am I supposed to be afraid to be Jewish again
- I know adults–not only young ones–but grown ass people who were so scared about Trump winning that they called their parents for comfort. Many of the parents didn’t understand the drama. To me, this was sad. I have family who have suggested his campaign is nothing, that he will focus on straightening out (see what I did there!) finances and bounce without affecting social issues. But then it’s like oh, Mike Pence, hay gurlllllll~~~~ And all the other people crawling into the festering, old Trump cabinet to take all the good away from us. Most of us don’t have a comfortable sentiment about this.
- I imagined killing myself. Why stay in a world where this stuff is fine and wins an election? Basically, half of the country conveniently to actively doesn’t give a flying fuck about us. The jokes we all mad about moving elsewhere if Trump (LOL! Obviously kidding!) would ever get elected feel empty now. I, among many, feel weak and nervous about the idea of leaving the beautiful, multicultural country we grew up in. Our families and friends live here. We like it here.
- We’re all people, people. I’m so disappointed that the best credit I can give Trump supporters is that they’re after the financial side of the deal. Well, I guess I didn’t realize money was so valuable to everyone that our neighbors’ safety and rights were up for reconsideration. Not just our neighbors, but in many cases, our friends and for some of you, your goddamn children! Shame on that. But for those of you who share those views–the xenophobic, misogynistic, homophobic, racist ones that are making us all scared right now, shame on you so hard. You are not Americans.